Tentang Diriku

Saban hari aku cuba untuk tidak mebiarkan ianya merumitkan pemikiran,
Tetapi tiap hari pasti perasaan itu akan terus menyirap ke dalam hati ini
Aku kian mendahagai sebuah kasih yang tulus
Segugus kasih yang telah lama tidak ku rasai kemanisan,
Secebis kasih yang kian hari kian luput dari hati
Secubit kasih yang kian malap baranya.

Aku merindui perasaan dicintai
Aku merindui perasaan mencintai
Mencintai seseorang yang ingin dicintai
Mencintai insan yang merasakan dicintai

Genggaman tangannya sudah terlalu lama tidak ku amati
Namun genggaman cinta juga kian lama kian mengulai.
Barangkali catitan hitam yang berlaku kini akan memalitkan lagi
Retakan seribu yang tidak mampu aku lapisi

Di ketika ini
Aku hanya mampu meratip setiap kesalahan yang berlalu
Aku hanya mampu menjadi insan yang hiba
Namun aku akan terus berusaha
Untuk memiliki sebuah hakiki
Yang indah dan terbaik untuk diriku
Namun hingga ke tika itu
Aku akan masih terus berusaha
Untuk menghadirkan sebuah cinta dari hatimu kepadaku
Kerana tidak mampu untuk ku curahkan kasih ku kepada yang lain

SALAM

Entah kenapa, saban hari perihal aku diperhatikan oleh segelintir. Setiap tingkah laku akan dipersoal dan ditegur. Mungkin kerana mereka sayang, atau mungkin kerana mereka risau, tapi semua perkara pasti akan dikritis.

Dan entah mengapa, teguran yang dilemparkan dapat ku rasakan teramat sinis. Dan entah mengapa, teguran yang diberi pasti akan berasa dengan kekecewaan di lubuk hati. Sebagai insan yang tak lekang dengan kesabaran, setiap sinisan diterima, aku hanya mampu beristighfar di dalam hati untuk mengelak api amarah dari terus menyala. Dan setiap istighfar itu, pasti dapat menyejukkan hati ini untuk terus bersama.

Mungkin aku seorang yang pelembut di dalam kehidupan ini, dan mungkin aku seorang yang penyabar, tapi jauh di lubuk hati perasaan geram pasti akan ternukil.

Setiap insan yang menegur, telah ku kenali lebih dari sedekad lamanya. Dan setiap insan yang ku katakan ini, pasti mengasihi aku sebagai seorang sahabat.

Biarkan sahaja perihal mereka. Masing masing sudah dewasa dan matang dalam persahabatan. Barangkali jikalau perkara ini keterlaluan, mereka akan mengetahui apa yang tersirat.

Biarkan..biarkan mereka terjun dengan perihal perihal mereka.

Maafkan (Tak Sempurna)

Ecoutez – Maafkan (Tak Sempurna)

saat kau katakan apa yang kau rasa dalam hatimu padaku
dan kujawab rasa cintamu yang dalam dengan senyuman di bibirku
semua indah, serasa dalam mimpi

dan hari pun silih berganti menguji cintaku kepadamu
tlah kuberi semua rasa cinta serta hatiku padamu
namun kau slalu menuntutku lebih
hingga ku tak tahu harus apa lagi

reff:
maafkan aku yang tak sempurna
sampai kapan pun itu aku tetap begini
ku hanya ingin tuk selalu menjadi
yang terbaik untukmu

huuuu, tak sempurna, tak sempurna
huuuu, tak sempurna, tak sempurna

seandainya ku dapat menjadi seorang seperti yang kau inginkan
hingga tak tergantikan cintaku dengan cinta yang lainnya
karena kau slalu menuntutku lebih
sampai ku tak tahu harus apa lagi

repeat reff

tak sempurna, tak sempurna, nanananananana
oooooh, tak sempurna, tak sempurna
dididididadadadida, tak sempurna, tak sempurna
dududududududu, tak sempurna, tak sempurna

repeat reff [2x]

tak sempurna, tak sempurna
tak sempurna, tak sempurna

The Tipping Point

Ramadhan is the time where I'll read up books during my free time. For this year, the first book that I read is The Tipping Point by Malcolm Gladwell.

It was not my intention to read up this book on the first place. Piles of other interesting reading materials was listed in my head. My sister had the fortunate to stumble upon a man in one of the popular bookstores that literally gorged up all the books available on the shelf. So without hesitation, she bought a copy of the book and gave it to me.

The Tipping Point started of with the story of how Hush Puppies suddenly cameback into our fashion scene in late 1994. The brand had been all but dead until that point. With just sheer luck, it managed to turn its business and past its tipping point to breakthrough again.

The book tells us on how little changes can actually have a significant changes in the future. It is the art of tackling these changes that can make or break the decisions that we will be venturing. Here, we will learn on the importance of 3 types of people that will help us in making an epidemic to happen. You will also learn the characteristics of these people, the Connectors, the Mavern and the Sales Person. Little that we know, all of us falls under either one of it. The Tipping Point will guide us in becoming a better representative in each group.

Stickiness Factor is the next topic in the list. This topic will elaborate on how epidemics can sustain through out its period. Examples regarding on how Sesame Street and Blues Clues managed to uphold their positions on TV was really an eye opener. It was an interesting chapter to hold, and little that I know, I spent an entire night reading it up without dozing off. No spoilers can be given out, but what I can say is, both Sesame Street and Blues Clues are rocket sciences! And we thought it is kids stuff!

The Power of context tells us the importants of understanding issues in tackling problems or opportunities. The story on how Bernie Goetz altered the New York Crime rate was amazing. The power of the number 150 is a must read to all Project Managers/Directors.

In conclusion, The Tipping Point is a must read book for all. It will make us realise how little changes in our approach to life and surroundings can actually alter the course ahead. I would also recommend this book to as a starter readers who wants to take up motivation genre.For readers who loved Freakonomics, grab this book and we could debate on the issue of Fall of New York City crime rate.

Enjoy your reading :)

for review in Bahasa Melayu, click here

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, "you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs".

Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls".

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said "you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company".

Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body.

This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was
simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said.
To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step.
Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card.
I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.

taken from an email recently received

Cycling

I missed the moments where the night breeze silently sweeping my face as we race pass through it. And I missed the times when we stop over for our thirst quenchers whenever we felt tired along the way. It's been several weeks since our last ride as a group. It's going to be a month halt prior to Ramadhan.

How I wish if we could do another night before we solemnly obey to Allah's instruction. And it would be great if we can get all together. We can listen to the buzzing noise of vehicles passing us by, little that we know it is an attenuator for is in depleting our hectic mind. We could secretly admire the cool night breeze as we pass the hills, and make us realize that there are plenty of natural beauties out there that we ignorantly did not know.

I remembered the time when we used to giggle on each moment we joked, and also we pant for breath when trying to talk while paddling up the hill. These are the moments I silently missed.

If I could get it for another night, I would be gayly happy to face Him in the month of humbleness.

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan

Perkataan yang cantik “Allah”

Lagu yang merdu “Azan”

Novel yang menarik “Al-Quran”

Senaman yang bailk “Sembahyang”

Diet yang mujarab “Puasa”

Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa dan rebutlah sebanyak mungkin fadilat2 dlm sebulan Ramadan al-mubarak.

Gantung Kasut

Selasa adalah malam futsal. Aku seperti biasa akan turun padang jika tiada aral melintang. Pada malam ini juga kebiasaannya adalah malam melawan team team lain. Ada team belang dan ada team Sha. Semua team hebat.

Pada malam Selasa yang lalu, Team Total turun dengan 5 orang aje. So, semua kena main sepenuh masa. Dan pada malam itu jugalah, dengan nasib yang agak malang, lutut aku sekali lagi menjadi mangsa lebam.

Ketika pemain lawan (Pawen) sedang cuba untuk meledakkan sepakan yang padu, aku dengan penuh berani (+ bangang) cuba melakukan gaya ala ala Macherano dengan menghalang sepakan itu. Tapi apakan daya, sepakan Pawen ternyata padu. Bola disepaknya sekuat hati, aku datang dan menadah kaki menghalang.. BOOOM! Sepakan dihalang. Di saat itu, aku dapat rasakan yang kaki kanan aku dah terlayang. Lutut aku pun dah terasa impak kesan dari halangan itu.

Huh, aku masih mampu berlari dan berjalan.. "Takde masalah kot lutut ni," kataku sendirian.

Selepas puas berhempas pulas, akhirnya habis juga perlawanan. Dah selesai, kami pergi minum. Setelah minum selama sejam, sudah tiba masa untuk pulang. Di situ lah segalanya bermula.

Aku dapati lutut kanan dah terasa bengkak. Nak bangun dari meja makan tadi dah terasa bisanya. Aku gagahkan juga untuk pulang. Setelah pulang, sebelum tidur, aku usap lutut aku dengan minyak panas. Aku lilit kan rantai Phiten di kelilingya.

Sesudah bangkit, lutut kanan ternyata tak dapat bengkok. MC lah jawapannya.

Dengan kudrat yang ada, aku pergi ke klinik. Doktor meyarankan agar aku kurangkan bermain futsal, atau kalau boleh, hentikan terus. Terkedu seketika aku dibuatnya.

Ternyata, kecederaan yang berlaku 4 tahun lepas masih belum pulih sepenuhnya. Kata kata doktor itu masih terngiang di dalam kepala..

Aku masih lagi memikirkan tentang nasihat yang diberi. Mungkin katanya benar. Kaki dan lutut ini aku nak guna sepanjang hayat. Kalau tak jaga, takut kecederaan yang lebih teruk bakal didatangi.

Ketika ini, aku akan rehatkan kaki aku dari bermain futsal. Kayuh masih mampu nak dibuat (low impact to the knee).

Mungkin inilah rehat yang paling lama akan aku lakukan dari futsal. Aku pasrah dan redha dengan ketentuan ini.. Insyallah..

Ada Berani

Ada berani team Takraw Total?
http://kosmo.com.my/kosmo/content.asp?y=2009&dt=0804&pub=Kosmo&sec=Sukan&pg=su_09.htm

Wisdom of the Day

"It's like the classic story of the young boy who travelled far from from his home to study under a great teacher. When he met the wise old man, his first question was,

'How long will it take me before I am as wise as you?'

"The response came swiftly, 'Five years.'

" ' This is a very long time,' the boy replied. 'How about if I work twice as hard?'

" ' Then it'll take ten,' said the master.

" 'Ten! That's far too long. How about if I studied all day and well into the night, every night?'

" ' Fifteen years,' said the sage.

" ' I don't understand,' replied the boy. 'Every time I promise to devote my energy to my goal, you tell me it will take longer. Why?'

" ' The answer is simple. With one eye fixed on the destination, there is only one left to guide you along the journey.' "

- The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari page 63 -

Need Help v1.1

Uh oh.. i'm so stress up with this dinner function! Date has been decided.. 14th Aug 08.

The venue has yet to be decided..

I want to held it in Armada, where they serve BBQ Buffet Dinner.
Unfortunately, some say the food is not worth the price.
I've never eaten the BBQ dinner, so I have little to say on that.

A friend suggested Mum's Place in Damansara Perdana.
I'm a little skeptical bout this place, as I have never been nor eaten there..
I'm just afraid the ambiance will be a normal coffee shop, which will be a turn off.

Another place that crossed my mind is Bora Asmara.
No buffet, just makan hidang with great ambiance..
Hmm.. pocho pocho?

What say u?

Mengantuk

Gambar ketika zaman belajar di payung, sebelum wujudnya tempat lepak W

Tiap tiap pagi bila nak pergi ke kerja, mata ini kadang kadang akan terasa mengantuk. Ini disebabkan oleh aktiviti dan tektik aku pada malam sebelumnya. Aku pun tak pasti kenapa aku keluar malam malam sebelum itu, yang pastinya keesokan pagi pasti akan terasa berat di mata.

Kebiasaannya, tiap tiap malam aku ada tektik. Sekarang ni pun, kehidupan malam telah terjadual;

Isnin : Aktiviti berbasikal
Selasa : Futsal UEFA
Rabu : Aktviti melepak
Khamis : Hari mencalat (dating)
Jumaat : Futsal

Aku rasa aku nak kurangkan dah aktiviti malam. Kalau tak kurangkan juga, mungkin satu hari nanti aku akan datang ke kerja seperti gambar yang tertera.

Rasa rasanya, yang mana satu aku patut eliminate?

Need Help.

I need to organize my Boss's farewell party.

He's Chinese with lots of Malay subordinates..

I suggested Dim Sum, but as usual.. my Malay colleagues objected to it..

Any suggestions?

Best Adult Jokes Contest 2009

The best adult jokes contest 2009 through cellphone texts/smses in U.S.A.

Grand Prize USD50,000.00 1) Newly wed girl told mom her husband is still a virgin. Mom asked "How do you know dear?" Girl replied "Last night, when we made love, his cock was still in plastic cover."

First Prize USD25,000.00
(2) Immigrant Worker: "Sir, me no come to work, me sick." Boss: " When I am sick, I have sex with my wife - try it." 2 hours later >>Immigrant Worker: "Boss! It worked! Me ok now. You got nice house."

10 Consolation Prize USD10,000.00 each
(3) After sex, a newly wed wife kept fondling her husband's cock. Husband asked: "Why? Want to have sex again?" Wife replied: "No dear, I just admiring your cock. I used to have one before."

(4) Women's lives are hard. Morning, wash clothes. Noon, hang clothes. Evening, keep clothes. Nite, iron clothes. Midnight, take off clothes. After midnight, find clothes.

(6) Priest lost his chicken and asked during mass: "Anyone got a cock?" All men rose. "I meant anyone seen a cock?" All women rose. "I mean anyone seen my cock?" All nuns rose.

(7) A Sad story >> A woman's husband died and she had him cremated. She then blew his ashes into the ocean and said, " Sweetheart, this is my last blowjob for you."

(8) Girl: "Mom what is a penis?" Mom: "When you become a good girl, you will get one." Girl: "But mom, what if I am not a good girl?" Mom: "Then you will get many, dear!"

(9) A lawyer who was confused in his mathematics asked his secretary: "If I give you USD3 million less 17.5%, how much would you take off?" Secretary: "Everything sir! Dress, Bra, Panties, Everything."

(10) Schoolgirl: "I do not want to take the sex Education class." Teacher: "Why?" Schoolgirl: "Someone told me that the final exam will be Oral."

(11) Two sperms talking on mobile phone. Ist: "I'm somewhere between the fallopian tube and uterus. Are you close-by?"2nd: "No boy, I am taking a different route. I am just crossing the tonsils."

(12) Scientists have discovered that the lightest thing in the world is a penis. This is because it can be lifted up even by just a simple thought.

Unpublished article

This is an untold story of a murder happened in a German court. It is puzzling that our media did not aired it on our news.

Are we coming to an era where Muslims are all hated? Genocides are taking places everywhere in our world, from Palestin to China.. We need to prepare for the worst.

The end of time is definitely coming. Let us all pray for our safe keeping..

Googled Ahmad Fairuz Effendee

I googled up my full name, and here are some of the hit list mentioned;

1. I appeared on ape yang ko merepek ni sapik
2. I signed a petition on believing in Allah
3. I was mentioned in Stick it
4. My fotopages was highlighted under the browsing segment.

Maybe my name had to compete with the Tun Ahmad Fairuz, hence my sweet lil' name could not get quite a hit.

Cara Cara Mengikat Tali Kasut

Memandangkan ramai di antara kita yang menggilai kasut, maka ini aku kongsikan cara cara mengikat tali kasut.

Ini juga boleh membuatkan kita terasa cool seperti orang muda..
















Diharap agar semua dapat mencuba pelbagai fesyen yang terhidang di sini.

Tiket Man Utd vs Malaysia

They are here... It's gonna be memorable watching Owen running in the Devils kit for the first time. I hope the new number 7 will eclipse the former, cause the former is a show pony.. I like Owen because of his work rate. That's why Tevez's departure will surely be missed.

I hope TFC's new number 7 (self proclaimed) will also be as good as Owen.

Selamat Hari Jadi Tunangku

Hari ini, hari jadi tunangku. Maka, hari ni maknanya kami akan pergi makan best. Tak tahu lagi nak makan katner.. Tunggulah petang nanti.

My birthday gurl

Aku berkenalan dengan dia pada tahun 2004. Dah lama dah... Banyak kenangan yang telah kami harungi. Suka duka dan tangis tawa telah sama sama kami jalan. Yang paling penting, dialah teman yang aku akan lalui baki hidup aku ni, sehinggalah ke akhir hayat, Insyallah...

Tak sabar rasanya aku nak masuk fasa baru dengan tunangku ni. Insyallah, tahun depan terbinalah masjid yang kami impikan tu. Doa doakan lah ya...

So, to my dear fiancee... Happy birthday my love. May your life is blessed with joy, happiness and taqwa...

Qunut

Janganlah kita tunjuk pandai kalau kita tidak mengetahui, dan berhati hatilah bila kita mempelajari sesuatu dari seseorang.. Pastikan pengajar itu benar benar arif tentang perkara yang di ajari.

FiAT

Baju yang menjadi isu

Pagi ini aku mengayuh ke pejabat. Dah agak lama aku tidak lakukan akitiviti ini. Takpe, memandangkan hari itu aku dah start balik mengayuh, maka aku pon kayuh ke ofis.

Sampai di ofis, seperti biasa aku akan terus mencapai milo ais dari kantin. Sesudah itu, aku pun menuju ke restroom untuk tukar baju dan mandi.

Sewaktu sedang duduk kemalasan di restroom, adalah seorang ofis mate masuk.

"Aiyo amad! apa macam u duduk itu macam! waktu u duduk saya sudah takda nampak huruf "i" di baju u..hahahah!" katanya kepada aku.

Uh oh, bahaya tu, kalau tak nampak huruf "i", maka baju aku akan mengatakan yang aku FAT. tak boleh jadi ni..

" Takpelah Bob, kalu lu takda nampak, nanti dua minggu lagi saya mari pakai ini baju, kasi u tak nampak huruf 'A' aje.. ok" balas aku.

Huhuhu..berjayakah aku? Pompang aje lebih ni!!!

Moving On

I've made up my mind weeks ago..
and now I've made it official..

It's gonna be the last 3 months..
I have mix feeling for it..

But life must go on..
I can't wait for the next chapter of my life..

Billi Lim will guide me all through the way..
I believe in his words..

Allah Selamatkan Kamu

Hari ini harijadiku. Maka hari ini adalah hari bermakna. Maka, hari ini mungkin hari yang biasa sahaja untuk kamu, tapi hari ini hari jadiku...

So, Selamat harijadi Ahmad Fairuz.. :)

For the One Who's Having the Time of His Life

FINDING AND KEEPING A LIFE PARTNER by Dov Heller, M.A.

When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake. Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50%, it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Miss. Right!

If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: 'We're in love'; I believe this is the ..1 mistake people make when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love. Though this may sound 'not politically correct', there's a profound truth here.

Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: 'You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone'; You need a lot more!!!

Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.

QUESTION ..1: Do we share a common life purpose?

Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone. What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together?

You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose.

Two things can happen in a marriage: (1) You can grow together, or (2)you can grow apart. 50% of the people out there are growing apart.

To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life!

Bottom line; marry someone who wants the same thing.

QUESTION ..2: Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?

This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship.

Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person. The basis of having good communication is trust i.e. trust that I won't get 'punished'; or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings.

A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings.. Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.

QUESTION ..3: Is he/she a mensch?

A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test? Here are some suggestions. Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves? A teacher of mine defines a good person as 'someone who is always striving to be good and do the right ';. So ask about your significant other: What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? Usually a materialistic person is not someone whose top priority is character refinement.

There are essentially two types of people in the world: (1) People who are dedicated to personal growth and (2) people who are dedicated to seeking comfort. Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.

QUESTION ..4: How does he/she treat other people?

The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure.

Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves and selfâ€' absorbed?

To measure this, think about the following: How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as waiters, bus boys, taxi drivers, etc.. How do they treat their parents and siblings? Do they have gratitude and appreciation?

If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything; can you do nearly as much for them? You can be sure that someone, who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.

QUESTION ..5: Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?

Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to 'improve'; them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it: 'You can probably expect someone to change after marriage for the worse' If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them.

In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous.

The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating; to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues.

Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself trouble because you didn't do your homework.

Another perspective...

There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, notâ€'going anywhere relationships. Observe the relationships around you.

Pay attention...Which ones lift and which ones lean?

Which ones encourage and which ones discourage?

Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill?

When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse?

Which ones don't appreciate you?

Which ones make you feel good, praises you, boosts you with loving and caring words or annotations.

The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you...the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.

An African proverb states, 'Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye'; Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.

Do you bring out the best in each other?

Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?

What do you bring to the relationship?

Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?

You can't take someone to the altar to alter them. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay.

If you develop self esteem, spiritual discernment, and 'a life'; you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.

WHAT KEEPS A RELATIONSHIP STRONG IS:

1. TRUST

2. COMMUNICATION

3. INTIMACY

4. A SENSE OF HUMOR

5. SHARING TASKS

6. DAILY EXCHANGES (meal, shared activity, hug, call, touch, notes,etc.)

7. SHARING COMMON GOALS AND INTERESTS

8. GIVING EACH OTHER SPACE TO GROW WITHOUT FEELING INSECURE

9. GIVING EACH OTHER A SENSE OF BELONGING AND ASSURANCES OF COMMITMENT

10. CONCERN AND CARE FOR YOUR LOVER IN YOUR OWN WAYS.

If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment withdrawal, abuse, neglect, and dishonesty; and pain will replace.

*taken from an email i received recently.

Tips On Eating and Diet

1. The Japanese eat very little fat
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

3. The Chinese drink very little red wine
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

4. The Italians drink a lot of red wine
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

5. The Germans drink a lot of beers and eat lots of sausages and fats and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

CONCLUSION

Eat and drink what you like.
Speaking English is apparently what kills you.

Tersebutlah Kisah...

Sudah lama aku meninggalkan warkah elektronik aku ini usang dari catitan catitan aku. Kehidupan di kala ini agak pantas. Siang berganti malam berlalu dengan begitu pantas. Aku adakala sibuk mengejar tanggungjawab aku di pejabat, dan kadang kadang masa yang terluang aku mengqada'kan tidur aku yang tidak pernah cukup.

Di kala ini, banyak benda yang telah berlaku, namun di antara semua itu, ada sesuatu yang aku ingin utuskan. Perkara ini sudah lama berlaku, adakala timbul, adakala ianya tenggelam. Aku ingin memperihalkan tentang kepentingan harmoni di dalam sesebuah institusi.

Sudah tersedia maklum bahawa peel manusia memang berbeza di antara satu sama lain. Ada yang unik, ada yang membosankan, ada juga yang menjengkelkan. Sedar tidak sedar, ada di antara perangai kita yang tidak begitu disenangi oleh rakan rakan sendiri. Kadang kadang aku juga berkelakuan sombong, adakala anda mungkin terlalu sinis, dan ada juga yang tidak sedar bahawa diri anda adalah sebenarnya baran.

Di sini ingin aku nyatakan bahawa sikap toleransi sudah lama wujud di antara kita. Tidak mungkin kita mampu bertahan berkawan sebegini lama sekiranya kita tidak mampu untuk bertoleransi sesama manusia. Namun, ingin aku nyatakan di sini bahawa ada segelintir di antara kita yang sangat suka memperendahkan toleransi yang diberi. Tidak kah anda dapat merasakan, yang kadang kadang tidak ada sesiapa yang menegur anda? Atau tidak ada yang menjemput anda untuk minum petang? Atau sedar tak sedar anda hanya keseorangan di malam hari, di kala rakan rakan lain keluar untuk secawan teh?

Cuba anda renung kembali perangai anda. Kalau kita perhatikan, jurang perpecahan antara kita semakin hari semakin besar. Ini kerana ada di antara kita yang tidak mampu untuk menahan cacian cacian yang anda lemparkan. Ada juga yang sudah tidak kuasa melayan kata kata sinis dan pedas yang keluar dari bibir anda. Jangan biarkan persahabatan di antara kita terkubur hanya kerana anda tidak mampu bertoleransi sesama sendiri. Jangan ikut kehendak anda sahaja tanpa memikirkan tentang kepayahan orang lain. Hari ini mungkin hari anda, tapi esok lusa kita tidak tahu milik siapa.

Oleh yang demikian, kepada siapa yang sinis, kurang kurangkanlah kata manismu itu. Sesiapa yang terasa besar kepala, besarkanlah lagi hati anda untuk menerima orang lain seadanya. Sesiapa yang baran, sejukkanlah hati mu itu dengan benda benda yang lebih berfaedah. Sesiapa yang terasa dirinya lebih hebat, ingatlah bahawa kehebatan mu itu juga disebabkan sokongan padu rakan rakan yang lain. Sesiapa yang terasa, buanglah yang keroh. Sesiapa yang merasa, curahkanlah semula air yang jernih untuk orang lain.

Ini semua catitan aku di dalam warkah. Apa yang tertulis, hanyalah sekadar renungan untuk semua. Aku tak mahu ada nanti buku ruas terhinggap di muka. Ini nasihat aku untuk anda. Tak mahu terima, ikutlah akal mu itu. Kerana mengikut akal mu itulah, maka terwujudlah keratan ini.

* Catatan ditulis oleh kerana aku lihat, aku dengar dan aku rasakan ada di antara kita yang ditindas oleh peel orang lain.

Nur Kasih 2.0

Aku masih belum ke tahap obses lagi tengok cerita ni, tapi aku memang tertarik dengan struktur jalan ceritanya..

Dan aku masih suka nak semua orang perhatikan raut wajah Amina ni.. Perhatikan betul2..

Ni pandangan sisi Cik Amina kita. Waktu ni tengah sesi nak kahwin...


Ni pulak gambar dia dari depan.. makin jelas muka dia ni..

Ni gambar dia close up sikit.. heheh, kenal tak?

Nur Kasih

Setelah sekian lama aku tidak menghidap sindrom Drama Melayu, akhirnya aku dijangkiti dengan siri yang baru pula...

Nur Kasih

Mula mula aku tengok (episod 3) hanya sekadar menunggu masa nak main futsal, tapi entah macam mana tersangkut pula..

Aku you tube cerita ini, dan dapat pula cerita aku tengok dari episod 1.

Pelakon pelakon cerita ini boleh tahan... ada Fizz Fairuz, ada Remy Ishak, ada Dato' Jalaludin.. tapi setelah lama aku amati pelakon wanitanya.. akhirnya aku tersenyum keseorangan...

Kau cuba tengok siapa pelakon yang menjayakan watak Siti Amina.. :)

Kau MAsih Kekasihku - NAFF

Chorus:
Jauh dilubuk hatiku
Masih terukir namamu
Jauh didasar jiwaku
Engkau masih kekasihku

Tak bisa kutahan lagi angin
Untuk semua kenangan yang berlalu
Hembuskan sepi merobek hati

Meski raga ini tak lagi milikmu
Namun didalam hatiku sungguh engkau hidup
Entah sampai kapan
Kutahankan rasa cinta ini

Chorus

Dan kuberharap semua ini
Bukanlah kekeliruan seperti yang kukira
Seumur hidupku
Akan menjadi doa untukmu

Chorus

Andai saja waktu bisa terulang kembali
Akan kuserahkan hidupku ini disisimu
Namun ku tau itu takkan mungkin terjadi
Rasa ini menyiksaku sungguh-sungguh menyiksaku

Chorus

Jauh dilubuk hatiku
Kau masih kekasihku
[3x]

ACAI BERRY

Recently, some of my friends are infected with the Acai Berry bug online. I am the person to be blamed causing it, as it is spread to them via my MSN account.

The problem is, I have no idea what is the product. I am worried as how did it manage to penetrate to my account and spread this "wonderful" product to my friends. I am thinking to resort the problem by terminating the account. Would it work, and would it be wise?

For all my friends who are infected by this bug,

maafkanlah saya.. aku tak makan pun product tu.. and aku tak boleh nak bagi testimoni camner aku berjaya turunkan 30 pound seperti menatang tu khabarkan...

MENDUNG TAK BERERTI HUJAN

Masa lalu kita di dalam hidupku
Dapatkah ku jadikan putih
Kegagalan cintaku jua keyakinan
Ku goyah oleh keadaan

Mendung tak bererti hujan
Yakinlah itu satu cobaan
Masih ada ruang kesempatan memilikinya

Aku ingin mencari ketenangan diri
Agar hidup ini
Bukanlah sekadar mimpi

Aku ingin kau tahu isi hatiku
Ku cinta padamu kasihku padamu
Putih tak ternoda
Untuk dirimu
Hanya untukmu...

Hasil yang Indah

Pagi tadi aku ke klinik. Aku nak ambil ubat untuk selsema aku yang tak ada kesudahannya.

Selesai pemeriksaan, aku menuju ke pintu keluar.

Di kala mencapai tombol pintu, aku terlihat menatang itu..

Aku terlihat skala penimbang.

Aku buka sepatuku..

Aku pijak sebelah..

Aku pijak kedua dua kakiku di atasnya.

Aku tunggu untuk skala stabil.

Aku perhati..

dan terus perhati..

Jarum skala semakin stabil..

Jarum skala terhenti...

....

Jarum menunjukkan bacaan.

Aku tersenyum...

Nampak gaya penat lelah aku berhasil!

Aku perhatikan jarum skala..

Menatang itu tidak menipu.

Aku turn dari skala penimbang..

Aku menyarung sepatuku semula..

Aku mencapai tombol pintu

Aku tersenyum... :)

Aku berjaya turunkan tujuh kilogram.

Aku kini 75kg..

Sekarang...

Sapa GEMOKS!!!

Never Give Up!

This is a story of a man who sees the glass as half full. His motivation and will power is an example for all of us who thinks that their obstacle is unbearable.

For every 100 falls, you must always stand up for the 101th time.

"Sesungguhnya bersama kesusahan itu ada kemudahannya"

-Rabiatul Adawiyah-

Projek Akhir Tahun

Kawan kawan ku ada menyuarakan cadangan untuk projek akhir tahun

MENDAKI GUNUNG KINABALU

Aku tertarik dengan idea ini. Barangkali projek ini boleh tercapai. Takpe, kita kumpul duit dari sekarang.

Duit aku habis beli Menatang!

Semenjak memulakan aktiviti berbasikal, banyak alatan alatan sampingan yang telah aku beli untuk melengkap/menyedapkan lagi kayuhan aku. Di sini aku senaraikan barangan barangan yang telah dibeli, dan kadang kadang aku rasa yang telah aku bazirkan. heheh...

Lampu depan dan lampu belakang



Menatang ni aku beli sewaktu mula mula dapat basikal. Aku dah buat kajian tentang corak kayuhan aku, amalan yang akan aku buat, dan aspek keselamatan. Maka dengan itu aku yakinkan diri untuk beli kedua dua lampu ini.

Setelah menggunakannya, aku dapati lampu belakang lebih banyak menyumbangkan jasa. Bukan apa, tapi tiap kayuhan subuh dan malam, lampu merah itu akan ku pastikan berkelip agar orang yang memandang aku dari belakang tidak akan meng'checkout' bontot aku yang kembang ini, tetapi memastikan kewujudan aku di tepi jalan yang sama sama kongsi ini. Ia juga untuk memastikan agar anjing anjing yang bersiar siar akan lebih tertarik kepada aku, sekaligus menyeksa aku untuk kayuh lebih laju agar tidak dikejar.

Lampu depan aku gunakan hanya apabila kayuhan malam, itu pun sewaktu jalan gelap atau jalan yang banyak simpang. Kalau kayuh atas jalan besar, takde pekdah aku on lampu tu, bukannya ada effect. Ada affect kat pemandu arah bertentangan adalah, SILAU! Kegunaan lain lampu depan ni ialah bila blackout, ia boleh ditukar menjadi lampu picit. Picit sekali untuk suluh, picit lagi sekali untuk jadikan lampu disco (Azalea dan Danish sukalah!).

Meter kelajuan


Meter ini aku pasang juga waktu mula mula beli basikal. Benda ni aku sayang. Setelah banyak kali repair, pomen, dan membegakannya, ia tetap menjalankan fungsinya. Meter ini memberikan aku segala maklumat kayuhan yang aku perlukan; kelajuan, jarak kayuhan, kelajuan maksima, kelajuan purata, masa dan lain lain. Alhamdulillah, hingga takat penulisan ini, kayuhan aku dah mencapai 452km. Jauh gak beb gua kayuh!

Topi keledar


Topi ini aku dapat percuma waktu beli basikal. Rupanya tak seperti topi basikal yang lain, kerana aku kurang gemar yang itu. Warna yang aku pilih pula gelap, sesuai untuk orang malas nak basuh selalu.

Kat belakang topi tu pelekat blog buih, iklan percuma buat member aku. Bagi can lah kat dia, waktu dia tengah galak nak sambut anniversary blog dia, aku layan aje!

Topi keledar amat amatlah penting sewaktu kayuhan. Kalau gambar gambar sebelum ini kelihatan aku tak pakai helmet, waktu tu safety awareness aku cetek. Sekarang ni, pergi Darus pun aku pakai. Otak nak pakai sampai tua beb!

Sarung kepala


Sarung kepala ini penting untuk elak peluh masuk mata. Selain itu, peluh akan diserap lalu mengelakkan dari topi keledar menjadi masam.

Orang kata, bila aku pakai sarung kepala ni, rupa aku jadi cam LL Cool J. Tak kisahlah, asalkan aku tahu siapa diri aku...

Seluar kayuh


Inilah alatan yang paling ralat sekali aku nak beli dan pakai pada mulanya. Seluar ini terlalu seksi untuk pemakaian. "Boy with his sexy tights!" kata kakak aku setiap kali aku menyarungkannya.


Nak tahu kenapa semua pengayuh kelihatan seksi ketika kayuh? Rahsianya terletak di bahagian span terletak di punggung. Ya, span ini penyelamat generasi kepada semua pengayuh sejagat. Ia membuatkan punggung lebih selesa ketika kayuhan, dan juga memastikan "anu" si pengayuh menerima minimum hentakan.

Dan kerana semua alasan di atas, aku tak ada pilihan selain memakai seluar ketat ini.. I LIKE!

Sarung tangan

Ini alatan yang dibeli lepas dah tergadah!

Sebulan berkayuh, aku dapat rasa kesakitan di tapak tangan. Ini semua kesan dari gegaran dan hentakan ke atas jalan raya. Kesan merah dapat dilihat dengan jelas. Atas nasihat beberapa rakan kayuh, aku disarankan untuk memakai sarung tangan.


sarung tangan "steng" dibeli di kedai Fook Sang. Ia berjenama VENZO. Dapat dilihat imej kepala harimau di atasnya. Aku sengaja beli yang ada kepala rimau ini, bertujuan untuk sentiasa beringat perihal tunangku di kala kayuh.

Kasut Kayuh


Kasut ini bukan untuk kayuh sebenarnya. Tapi hampir kebanyakan pengayuh mountain bike memakai kasut sedemikian perihal. Kasut Salomon ini sebenarnya kasut hiking. Perihal kasut ini telah ditulis di helaian yang lalu.

Kaca mata


Setelah beberapa kaca mata yang tak ori, maka ini merupakan kaca mata terbaru yang digunakan untuk kayuh. Memamg aku sengaja memilih yang tak tinted, yang tak gelap, kerana dengan lensa sebegini dapat aku gunakan tak kira waktu dan masa. Nak kayuh pagi, aku bole nampak, nak kayuh petang, silau dapat dilindung, nak kayuh malam, masih boleh nampak dengan terang.

Kaca mata sebenarnya bertujuan untuk mengelak mata dari dimasuki debu dan habuk. Cuba kayuh belakang bas, baru kau tahu kepentingan pakai alat perlindungan mata. Lagipun, stylo lah sikit bila kayuh! baru ada klas!

Inilah alatan alatan yang dibeli untuk aktiviti kayuhan. Lepas ni, aku nak tambah beg, seluar panjang dan beberapa alatan lagi.

Kemungkinan juga Deore XT bakal ditambah ke basikal ku.. Nantikan sahaja!!