Till you do me Right

I was in love with you

And gave my heart to you

I did my best to keep you satisfied

You took the love from me

And used it selfishly



You did not give back your

Love to me at all

I gave the sun to you

You said it was too bright

I gave you diamond rings

You said they didn't shine



I gave my world to you

But you said it's not enough

What in the world could I have done

To make you be so rough



'Til you do me right

I don't even want to talk to you

I don't even want to hearyou speak my name

'Til you do me right

Only wrong is gonna come to you

Nothin' good is gonnacome 'til you change

Change your ways

Until you change your evil ways



Girl I was there for you

Someone you could talk to

How could you just keep breakin' my heart



What did I do to you

To make you be so cruel

I don't understand why you've been so wrong

I tried to be your strength

You said I was too strong

I tried to compromise

So We could get along



I gave my love to you despite

Your evil ways

I guess it's clear to me there's only

One thing left to say



[Chorus]



There's a time when you know what you Feel inside your heart

It's tellin' you that somethin' feels strange

You don't have to deny it

All you gotta do is just try it

You'll find our love grows

Stronger if you're willing to change



[Chorus 2 times]

Better Off

You want everything to be your way,
With all the demands and all the delay,
And you wanted me to loose my habits and my strays,
But you only want it on a one way

I did wrong, I corrected my points,
Just to ensure that the journey

Bored

Aku dah bosan,
Sampaikan waktu tengahari pun aku dah bosan nak makan. Apa nak jadi ni? Nak tido, semalam dah tido more than enough. I think I need to get a life!

Teh C

I had a pre-cycling session using Adam's unit (a bmx). After a disastrous and bore some day, I decided to take a quick exercise. It was 11.35pm, so I packed my wallet, handphone and handsfree, my ciggy and a torchlight into the mini bag Sasha gave for one of my birthdays. I am ill equipped with all the safety gadgets, so with my dark sweatshirt and a black cap, off I started cycling.

I decided to cycle to Teh C just to determine my endurance capability and also to check out the route. The journey from home to the monsoon drain well street lighted, but once I reached the school, it was dark. Had to turn on my torchy (sorry, cat eye x beli lagi) till the main road. Crossing the main road was okay, considering it was a Friday night. My breathing up to the point was good.

Reaching to the Giant's cross road, the journey took a long straight flat road. It was the first test on the bike. To cycle a BMX on a flat road requires good techniques and stamina. I do not possess any. This was where my right tights began to sore. With fatigue began to take its toll, I reached upon the Neon junction. The road ahead was in darkness.

My second test was about to loom. The road is well known for wild street dogs. As I recite Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, I paddled through the road. Thank goodness no dogs was around. I reached Teh C at about midnight. Everyone was looking at me. To hell with others, as long as I am happy with it, I could not care less. Grabbed myself a water, lighted up a ciggy, I rest. Friends were not around to the moment, maybe futsal was still on.

I have decided to rest for only half hour. So, after settling the bill, it was time to go home. The watch clocked 12.39 am. "Good, lets see how long will it take to paddle back" I said to myself.

I took the same path as before. I paddled up to Rio de Futsal, but unlucky me, the road was jammed with DOGS!! Made a U turn to one of the lighted guard house, and I stayed there for a good couple of minutes. "Lu gi ambil jalan lain lah, pusing kiri kat bulatan" the guard suggested. Okay, let me take that road. Haha... the roundabout was throned by a German Sherperd. Suddenly my legs paddled faster than before. Lucky me, it was not bothered to even look at me.

The route began to ease. Did you know that there's a big field situated there? It is equipped with a futsal court as well. The wonders of cycling, scenaries are better appreciated. I had a wonderful trip back. I even smiled to one of the leng lois while she was waiting at the bus stop opposite Summit. She did not respond, pfftt!!

Overall, it was what I wanted. To be able to commute further than walking, to sweat out my anger and boredom, and to feel satisfied with what I have always wanted. My legs has already reached its limit, but my passion for cycling grew stronger. I think I can do this, and I know I want to do it. I reached home at 12.59am.

I Want It

I want it
But I have doubts on my capabilities
To sustain it in a long run
To maintain it through out the journey
To strive on it till the end of time

I know I want it
But my surrounding seems to doubt my hunger
And the discouragement seems will never end
Though I long for it, and I'd work for it
It seems it's best to be put on something worthwhile

I'm sure I want it
So do not discourage me on pursuing my crave
Support whatever I desire to do
Cause if I plunge into unproductiveness
I would not drag you down

I know I want it
And I know I'll be happy
With my decision and sacrifices that'll arise
And I know I'll be smiling
Throughout my journey in pursuing my dreams

3 Peel

2009 hadir dengan berbagai warna. Di kala meniti saat tengah malam, dapat ku rasakan rasa suka dan duka bercampur. Apakah ini satu tanda yang bakal menyaksikan tahun yang penuh dengan cabaran?

Satu per satu peel manusia dapat ku saksikan. Ada yang bersuka, ada yang berduka. Ada yang sedang klimaks menikmati waktu pertemuan, dan ada juga yang tidak sabar untuk menemukan titik noktah satu perhubungan. Aku masih seperti dahulu, aku tidak berganjak ke tampuk yang lebih selesa, namun aku juga tidak lagi terjerumus ke kancah yang merah.Ke manakah arah tuju aku? Masih kabur kabur destinasi impian yang ingin dikecapi. Di saat ini aku ingin memperkatakan tentang 3 perihal insan yang ku kenali, dan antara mereka aku namakan, kasihi, sayangi dan sesali.

Kasihi,
Sesungguhnya tidak pernah berganjak pendirian aku tentang mu. Ku sesali keputusan mu untuk tidak mengharungi lagi badai ombak yang telah kau lalui. Telah kau buktikan yang kau mampu untuk melawan arus. Namun sayang sekali, kamu sudah tidak percaya tentang perjuangan kamu. Mungkin kerana masa yag dengki terhadapnya, atau mungkin cinta kamu beralih ke arah yang lebih produktif. Tapi jangan kamu lalai pada tanggungjawab kamu terhadap yang Esa, dan jangan kamu lalai ketika yang lain mengindahkan kamu. Untuk kali ketiga, kau bakal mengharungi keadaan yang kompleks. Telah ku katakan padamu, tidak terdetik untuk aku
membantah keputusan kamu. Berwaspadalah bila kau bermain dengan api.

sayangi,
Pada mulanya aku sangsi tentang keteguhan pendirian pada keputusan yang diambil. Namun setelah kau meluahkan apa yang terbuku di hati, dan setelah mengetahui apa yang kau lalui,
aku tahu amat payah untuk kamu mengecapi keputusan yang hakiki. Kamu mungkin boleh bertahan sepurnama dua, namun selepas itu pasti akan kamu tagih semula nikmat yang terhalang. Nasihat ku padamu, putuskan tali yang selami ini hanya membebani hidupmu. Jangan biarkan dirimu dipermain sedemikian cara, kerana kamu patut memperoleh nur yang lebih bagus dari yang sedia ada. Sepanjang kemurungan tempoh, aku akan ada di sisi mu untuk kau dambakan air mata, untuk kau curahkan isi hati, untuk kau kecpai ngilai tawa, untuk kau alami puas bersahabat.

Sesali,
Masih tidak berubah perihal kamu. Dulu lagi pernah kita bertangkas kerana sifat amarah. Sedekad berlalu, namun perihal itu masih terbuku di dalam dirimu. Mungkin untuk kali ini, kau dapat berfikir bahawa yang putih adalah benar, yang berwarna hanyalah peringatan. Bertapalah kau, dan fikir sejenak tentang siapa atau apa yang patut berubah. Jangan sampai titik noktah hubungan kita dek kerana kamu tidak dapat berfikir untuk ke arah kebahagiaan.

Aku memang manusia yang tidak sempurna. Namun, catatan ini milikku. Catatan ini diterbit di tas lembaranku. Maka isi hati ku ini adalah apa yang ku rasa, tidak ada siratan kerana aku mengejar keikhlasan.

Perasaan kamu bukan tanggungjawab aku. Perasaan kamu adalah milikmu. Perasaan aku adalah miliku.

My Pride, My Passion, My Love

I have never posted pictures of my fiancee Nunni, so let me update all of you with some of it